India: A conclusion

Tomorrow evening I will be on a flight heading to Washington DC after having been in India since Nov 1. So what then are my thoughts as the hour approaches to depart this foreign land for my home land, and most importantly will I be able to answer the question Im asked almost daily:Why did you go to India?

5 months earlier I was sitting at a computer In Maryland at Mike the Bikeman Bachmans house contemplating what to do next. Cailyn, Mike and myself had just hitchhiked from Cailifornia to Chicago where we took a greyhound to Maryland to visit Mikes family. Mike had been gone for a year and a half after his bike tour from Maryland to California and wanted to visit home. Cailyn had recently been fired from whole foods and I had recently quit. So hitchhiking with Mike to Maryland seemed only practical. Leaving Sept 1st we arrived in Chicago 2 weeks later, cities are almost impossible to hithchike out of and so we decided to take a greyhound the rest of the way.

So I quickly typed up our adventures in a haphazardous way without any emotion on this site which I had made for me before we left. I was dissatisfied with the writing and I didnt get what I wanted from the trip, something was missing. I was groping in the darkness for the light switch that I thought would illumine the confusion that I felt inside but did not find it. So what do? Give up go home, or try again this time In India.

So were the thoughts that I had as I booked a one way ticket to Delhi from JFK for Nov 1st. The plan was to have no plan therefore everything would go according to plan. One of many lessons learned on the 2 week hitchhike to Chicago, everything works out somehow. So after roaming around for the month of Nov searching for far and wide for what I could only classify at the time as “something” my pleading thoughts were answered and I made it to the Ashram.

The place I never knew I was always looking for. The place to detoxify my mind of slime accumulated from years of neglect to my intellect. A place to no longer search but see, to illumine the darkness and confusion inside out not outside in. What is spirituality? GOD is a word and words can be interpreted In as many ways as there are people and the perspectives they have. But the self the realization of who we really are and the potential enfolded inside beyond that darkness and confusing cloud of fear and doubt. The latter is something that is undeniable and the those who seek it and practice it can confirm it exist.

Im ready to come home, to do some things Ive put off for a long time. Its something I want everyone to be a part of that involves building a community of people who want to help each other realize themselves. Its something Ive put alot of thought into and Im really excited to get started on it when I get back but its something Im going to need alot of help with and involvement. More details In April.

I want to thank everyone who has supported me, I couldnt have done this alone. I cant wait to get involved in all your lives when I get back and to hear about how everyone has grown or why they havent… Thank you and love you all.

Im going to miss the coconuts.
I dont know why I went to India, great question.